I am happy with my Nanjing trip, although I did not really go to many site visits, and did not make full use of the park visiting year card. I would say Nanjing is a city that has a long history, which can be seen anywhere: the stone bridge (石桥), the circumvallation (城墙), the city gates (城门), the martyr cemeteries (烈士陵园), ...... Many people’s lives are under the ground, reminding us the tragedies of the history. Of course, there were many great stories too. Nanjing has been the capital city for a few dynasties.

Actually, my first purpose of this Nanjing trip was to attend the PAKDD conference, doing a presentation on a workshop. It was self funding. So if it is not in Nanjing, where my sister is staying, I might not want to go. But now I realized it was a golden opportunity to attend this kind of conference/workshop. I met people from different counties and listened to different kinds of data mining researches—open my view. And it wrote a shining page in my experience—as the only undergraduate presented in the workshop, and being the first presenter,. Well, my presentation was short, and I didn’t spend the 30 minutes given. Hee, maybe I just tried to be a bit lazy. However, answering 4 questions took a few minutes. Afterall, I should admit that my knowledge is that little compared to the rest.

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老妹说:“两个人在一起，是要互相compromise 的。这个世界上没有谁一定要对谁好。即使亲人，也没有这样的义务。所以，当有一个人对你好，就要懂的珍惜，并懂得回报......”

跟妹讲了一个多钟头的电话，自己再好好反省了一天，发现我这个当姐姐的要拜妹妹为师了。以前还笑她喜欢读一些哲学立志的书，看来我错了。我发现我的思想在某方面还是那么幼稚，怪不得老妹笑我这么老了，还作出一些十多岁小女生才会有的举动。

好吧，我会听妹妹的劝，认真的以成熟的心态去对待我们的感情的。当然，还有别的人事关系。

Oh, I have not really taken a good rest after exam. I just had things to do everyday, and found little chance to sleep till I feel satisfied. Indeed, I slept at 430 am this morning, because of a deadline due this morning. However next week? Well, I don’t think it is going to be a relaxing week. I am flying off to Nanjing on Friday, and my presentation slides are not well done yet. After my trip, there will be job interviews. So, my May is a busy month.

P.S.: I want to thank him, for his 包容， to keep me motivated.

 曾听说什么“辽伤情歌”：顾名思义，情歌是用来辽伤的。也听说过有人听歌伤情，歌词有如自己的痛苦经验而伤心流泪。

其实，爱情的结果不过有二：分手或结婚（且不说结婚的结果）。没有实际数据调查，但个人觉得当今社会分手的案例应该多过结婚的结果：因为大多数人都不只谈过一次恋爱。再说，分手的情歌大大多过于热恋的情歌。或许我不一样吧，我应该是那种杯弓蛇影的人：不会让自己再受同样的伤害。

其实，听听情歌，流流泪，应该可以减少忧郁症的案率，因为这是一种发泄的方式。

只是好奇：写词人会不会也是边流泪边创作啊？

I think I am hurt. It is real this time. I just feel so sorry to myself, because I hurt myself and my family. But I shall keep it to myself—it is my responsibility for myself.

Certainly things are going to be different. That’s how life is going—learning from the pain. The wound will leave scar—so that’s the memory. Although it is painful, it is unforgettable. Well, perhaps it is better to get rid of those vivid evidences of the memory.

Don’t be too worried, be happy. Life has to go on.

So that’s the end.

Mark the day: 3rd May 2007—I did my last exam in my university life.

After the exam, I just could not stop to smile to myself. Well, it’s just for a while. I just feel so naturally, nothing special; like many others who have graduated. There is a “to-do” list in my mind. So far, my schedule has been set for next Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday.

So, this is not the end, but just the beginning.